May 17, 2017
When I walked in I was in pain. I was tight and I was holding tension. I wasn’t in tune with what was happening in the bottom half of my body.
My cycle came yesterday. How fitting, one of the bigger days I’ve been anticipating and holding on for – her two year birthday.
I’ve been sitting with this idea that it should somehow be perfectly, exactly, wonderfully 28 days long. I have been holding on to that thought for a long time. The reality that it might be 50 to 60 days just doesn’t always seem like something I can sink myself into. I’ve been trying for so long to morph my body into this perfect mold of what a cycle should look like and feel like.
March 20, 2017
I wrote a post today on Instagram about anxiety and confusing it for being afraid of transition, change, new ideas, big ideas, good things, scary things and really just the moment before something totally fucking awesome happens. It happens to me all the time. It’s what happens (I think) when you finally open your heart and ask the Universe (or God, or your higher being – whatever you call it) for what you truly want.
It’s a moment where all gets tight in your chest and where you really don’t want to mess anything up because you can kind of just see all the good stuff peaking around the corner.
A few things that help to keep me grounded during times like these:
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March 7, 2017
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March 6, 2017
As I was washing the dishes last night, rerunning all of my current stresses, to do lists and plain and simple things I want to get done, I realized that I could really easily collapse tomorrow and not wake up.
I know the likely hood of that happening is slim, and I know it’s not helpful to get myself worked up about the what if- could be -maybe of tomorrow but it did make me think. It made me think of the million things that are currently on my mind in this moment. And that instead of not really focusing on any of them, I could be focusing on what’s going on in my body in this moment. And where I am.