The last 21 day adventure felt like climbing a mountain. Personally, my husband and I have had a lot going on. The biggest one being a move. A quick move and a move that isn’t a forever move. It can be the hardest thing sometimes to be in transition – to feel like you’re waiting to be settled and yet you know when you get there you’re not really settled at all. 

For 21 days I struggled making healthy meals, and finding time to breathe. When I could and when I did, it felt so good. Like things were falling back into their normal rhythm. I now know why my first 21 day holistic eating and living journey was such a dream. I was home. I had recently left my job and I had given myself the time and space to really embrace each and every part of the journey. This one was a learning experience. One I needed to have…because things aren’t always easy, or smooth. It rarely feels like there is enough time, and sometimes you have terrible sleeps and crave bad food. 

On this journey to make babies, we’re faced with so many things. Changing what we eat, changing what we put on our skin, changing how we treat our bodies, how we exercise, what we read, how we think….it’s a lot. It can feel like a huge gigantic mountain that we have to climb in one go. 

As hard as the 21 HE + LJ was for me, I think it allowed me to really stop and see what a racing mind and a rushing body really does. It doesn’t help. It doesn’t guide you. It doesn’t do much for you but make you feel like things aren’t working and flowing. It makes you feel unbalanced. On the other hand I think it was so great to have slip ups. To crave and to cave into eating things that I wouldn’t normally eat. To forgo breathing one night to just curl up in bed and talk to my husband. Giving yourself the freedom to bend the rules and to do what you feel like you need is just as important as getting the ‘good’ stuff. 

As October continues and we progress further into our move, I’m going to try to find a little bit of balance each day to see if I can help to bring myself back to calm. Personally, I’m looking forward to watching my husband in his bike race tomorrow morning and spending time with my family this weekend as we celebrate Canadian Thanksgiving. There’s nothing like getting back to basics and remembering why we’re on this journey in the first place. Picturing yourself with a tiny person surrounded by family seems like a pretty sweet dream right about now.