KEEP SOME ROOM IN YOUR HEART FOR THE UNIMAGINABLE [ M.O ]

I’ve always been told I’m a dreamer. An exaggerator. A story teller. 

I embellish because I like to relish in the goodness of some things, even when they might not be that good. 

I try to find the most positive in the situation even if it’s barely there. 

I hold onto small moments, I remember people and interactions with every ounce of my being. 

If you made an impact on me, you will not be forgotten. 

It’s not the most practical way of living but it’s my way of living. It’s how I got to be where I am. It’s how I wandered from place to place and ended up on my two feet, standing, with this huge round belly in front of me. 

I love my path, I love the journey I’ve taken and I will always say that even some of the most awful things that I’ve experienced, I don’t regret. They helped me to become stronger and more resilient and more determined to move forward. 

It can be hard to know what is coming, in fact, for most people, it’s impossible. I’m not a planner for the most part. I like not knowing how something may turn out. Sure, I might have an instinct or a general feeling, but I like not knowing what the end looks like. Maybe it’s my form of self preservation. It allows me to genuinely experience each and every day with my whole being. Maybe that’s why I said what I said about checking boxes the other day. 

“At some point in our lives there becomes this outward pressure to check these boxes. And what if we don’t? And what if we do? The boxes will always be there but what I’m realizing is that you only really need to listen to what you’re own heart and body are telling you. They hold the only boxes truly worth checking or x’ing. Either way, once you’ve decided for yourself, there is nothing left to do but live and experience every single day.” 

Sometimes you know what you should do, sometimes it’s totally unclear, but the decision is left up to you. Embracing that, and being a part of it is one of the most courageous feelings in the whole entire world.