“Don’t try to rush things that need time to grow”

You know that feeling when you’re waiting to hear from someone? You have your phone glued to your side, checking to make sure the sound is on. You’ve got your email open and you’re refreshing it every two minutes. 

That’s what this waiting feels like. At some point, a shift happens, the baby drops, the pressure builds, the little room that was there is now completely gone and you’re just w a i t i n g. 

I know I’m only at 35 weeks but I can’t help but to let you know how I’m feeling. 

As much as the waiting is hard, there really isn’t anything better than waiting to hear from someone is there? That anticipation? That hold-your-breath feeling? The knowing that you’re going to get to hear a little piece of their life, a little insight into their day, their week, their month. 

Someone special reached out to me a while back and asked how I felt about writing letters. Her suggestion – a pen pal friendship. If you’ve ever seen Julie and Julia, the film with Meryl Streep and Amy Adams, you’ll know that Meryl Streep has this incredible pen pal, Mavis. You don’t know until she goes to meet her that they’ve never actually met. That their only relationship up to that point was only through letters. I loved that. So this someone special, she reached out and we’ve been writing letters back and forth for months now. Learning about the ins and outs of who we both are, where we’ve lived, what we like, what we crave, what we want for the future. It’s incredible how without ever meeting someone you can feel so connected and close to them. 

That’s what this is like in a way. 

(Except for the fact that it’s more of a one sided relationship in terms of speaking…and that we’re really just physically feeling out who one another is). But you know what I mean, right? 🙂 

Because at the same time as there is this inevitable connection, there is also this wild disconnect. I wrote about it the other day on Instagram. The less time you have, the more time you spend worrying about all the little things. The organization, the shopping, the cooking, the squeezing in seeing people and appointments to make sure that it’s all ‘done’ by the time they decide to arrive. 

Taking the time, whether or not you’re pregnant, to really be present with yourself ( or someone ) is so important. Because when that letter arrives, when they do finally call, when they finally arrive, you’ll get flushed, your heart will race just a little bit faster and you’ll remember why waiting this long is so unbelievably awesome.