I’d say it was around Christmas time when my brother made my entire family watch Guardians of the Galaxy on Christmas Eve. I downloaded the soundtrack that night and later bought the record for us. So there I am, driving to work one super snowy cold January morning and I listen. I hear what this guy’s saying. And I get goosebumps. If you aren’t listening to it right now, listen. And tell me you don’t get goosebumps.

It was her the whole time. It just makes my heart melt. I love how honest he is, how honest they both are. Relationships aren’t perfect. We as individuals aren’t perfect. What we need changes. In this case it happened to work out pretty perfectly for them, but it doesn’t always.

You’re probably wondering why I’m telling you this.

Last nights feedings went well, but I was still up three times and it was a struggle to get her to go back down each time. When I got the final wake up cry it was around 6am. I was tired today. Really really tired. I eliminated caffeine from my body two years ago in February and slowly reintroduced it this past April when I was very pregnant and very tired. Since having Aggie I’ve been back to drinking a cup of black tea with milk every morning. So, as of yesterday I stopped again. It wasn’t easy. I know it’s a small piece of my day, but having a hot cup of tea in the morning after a semi sleepless night is something I relish. I love a slow wake up. Playing a record, lighting a candle, opening windows to let fresh air in and turning on the kettle. It’s like this little saviour that I look forward to while I watch Aggie wriggling around on the floor.

So, here I am, on Day 2 telling you that I’m bringing that back for myself. I know I can live without it, but right now I’m choosing to bring something back into my day that makes me feel more balanced. Something which ultimately will make these 21 days more successful and more positive for me – which if I’m being honest, is what this is all about. The give and take. Achieving that fine balance that we feel like we’ve lost. There are no right or wrongs. There is no place we need to get to. Whatever you need to do to make the next 19 days the most calm, the most honest, the most you that you need to, do it.  It’s your journey.

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THE BEST WAY TO END THE DAY

I am finding that my favourite part of the day is right before bed. I’ve kept up with my gratitude journal so I usually take some time to write before I head upstairs. Once I’m in my comfy clothes I crawl into bed, turn the lights off, light a candle and throw my legs up the wall. I don’t know what the weather has been like where you are, but it’s been insanely humid here in Toronto. My poor feet have been feeling so swollen! Practicing Viparita Karani is something Jeff and I have done for a long time together – it’s such a great way to end your day with your partner if you can. Right now I’m loving it as a way to just take a huge deep breath and digest the day. I allow myself some time to belly breathe and reflect on everything that happened. As a yoga pose, Legs Up the Wall gives your heart a rest. It gives it a break so it doesn’t have to pump as hard, it slows your heart rate right down leaving you with a calm mind and heart. It’s a place where you can feel the blood draining out of your feet, you can forget what has happened today and what needs to happen tomorrow. You can just be and know that where you are right now is exactly where you need to be.

                                           6 months pregnant – Legs up the Wall