As we approach the New Moon on Wednesday in the Northern Hemisphere I’m reminded of what it feels like to harness the power of the moon and set intentions. The New Moon in all of it’s yang goodness allows us to set and feel what we want to manifest in our whole body (if you believe in that sort of thing).

Sometimes I float back to these moments in time – one that stands out in particular tonight is largely to do with the fact that I’m drinking peppermint tea. Every night in my first year of university my boyfriend would make us peppermint tea at his apartment. I would walk into his tiny room in the three bedroom apartment he shared with two friends and it would be covered in tiny tea lights – on ledges, on his desk, on window sills, floor boards, you name it – the place was filled with little speckled lights. And this was always playing. Or something like it at least. As I float back to that moment, we fall asleep in his flannel sheets and when we wake up he takes me out to breakfast. A tiny hole in the wall on the second floor of this random building in the North part of the city we were living in at the time. He orders me breakfast (turkey bacon, scrambled eggs and toast). He always ordered for me – not in a creepy I’ll tell you what you want kind of way but more so in an endearing let me take care of you kind of way. It was charming regardless of how it comes off. So there I am, eating turkey bacon and scrambled eggs and I’m overcome by this feeling of being supported, of being held. And I realize I want to feel like this again. And again. I want to come back to this feeling of being taken care of because it feels so good.

Don’t get me wrong, I love being the wild independent soul that I am but there is something to say for having someone looking out for you and having your best interest at heart. It was with him that I realized the power of manifesting. Of talking to the universe and figuring out what it is I truly wanted to ask for. I didn’t know much about the moon at that time but I knew I was drawn to it – always curiously looking at it wondering what kind of power it held. I would sit in my dorm room when I wasn’t at his apartment and create and write and think. I would dream up what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go.

If we ever sit down to share a cup of tea I’ll tell you what came of that year – it was pretty amazing.

But back to the moon. The type of energy functioning in each of the phases alternates between active (yang) and receptive (yin), much like breathing is a two-step process — the breath is inhaled, then it is exhaled. Right now, the moon is entering it’s yang state – it’s masculine. Heat, light, active. It’s the time to put forth our dreams and our thoughts. The things we want to be creating and doing and experiencing. Where we can ask for what we want and be a part of it.

A new baby. A new home. To become more proactive. To explore more. To be honest with yourself. To read more before bed. To floss your teeth. What is it that you want to dare yourself to dive into?

For me, it’s that home in the wild I’ve been craving.

Right now I can smell the milk that’s settled on my skin. It’s comforting. Birdie is right across the hall from me as I type this and I can’t help but to feel like I miss her. I’m still and feel like I always be in awe of how real that cord is and how long it lasts. It only started to dissipate with Aggie in the last year or so. When I think of that, it makes me want to keep being really aware of the way I treat my kids and the love I have for them. The way that my words linger and last, just like the smell of this milk. Knowing that they can hear them and feel them and that I can choose to be kind. To be honest. To take care of myself. To help myself and my family get to this place we’ve been talking about for so long.

When I first started thinking about what I wanted and how to get there, I started with dream boards and vision boards but someone recently shared with me their soul board. A board of images that emit feelings, things that she wants to feel at any given moment. I loved that so much. If you were given an hour and a great sound track what would your soul board look like? What images would you gather and what feeling would you want to connect to?

Passion. Love. Laughter. Intimacy. Solitude. Adventure. Mischief. Curiosity. Comfort.

 

See what happens.