I’ve been thinking so much about the way we each see our surroundings. About how different it can be to each of us.
You may have noticed I took (am taking?) a generous break from social media and haven’t written here in a long time. Not because I don’t have anything to say – I do. So much in fact that it’s felt overwhelming to know where to start.
I’ve always loved sharing, in particular sharing here and through Instagram. Snippets of our flow, our home and our life. Mostly though, I’ve loved sharing words and thoughts. Somewhere in the last six months to a year with the algorithms and the change in flow on Instagram, I just lost sight of the people I really genuinely love following along with. And I think some of those people also lost me in there. The reason I felt so connected to so many of you was because of the way (it seemed) my words resonated with you. I can humbly admit that when your vulnerability gets lost amidst the thousands of other pictures and words you start to question why you’re even doing it.
Taking a bit of a breather from needing my words to be read and instead embracing more of an exploration to write for myself or sit with what’s coming up. For so long sharing my inner most thoughts and feelings brought me so much cathartic joy – it truly helped me heal. But, like all cycles in life, you eventually come to a fork in the road. Asking yourself the hard question, does this serve me anymore? What is its purpose? What do I need to move forward?
I’ve been manifesting long before I even knew what it was. Some might call it faith, I like to think of it as my relationship with my masters teachers and loved ones — they are all up there, listening, guiding and loving on me from afar. And I can feel that, like I could feel the call for this space. A space to feel the quiet but get so unabashedly loud with my heartwork – the kind of sound that vibrates through your entire body. The kind of noise you want to make sure your daughters know they are allowed to make.
I don’t think I have any clear answers as of yet. The more I’ve thought about it, the more it feels like this pause has become a quest of some kind. A quest to see if I can fulfill a long time dream – taking what I love to do and turning it into a tangible space and having the biggest adventure yet.
Where I normally would be a swirling mess in my head, I am now rooting down hard into my body. Feeling what I need. The first thing?
A freaking 21 day Lovefest (previously known around here as the 21 Day Holistic Eating and Living Journey).
A clear all, catch up, deep breath, moving, shaking, love-on-me adventure.
If you’ve been following me on Instagram you know that we’ve instituted a morning fam jam dance party. Every day. Same song. Possibly a different instrument and definitely different feelings. We started because Aggie needed some expression of energy to start the day followed by a little grounded family time. So these days, we dance our hearts out to “Express Yourself” and then we take a seat over breakfast and ask one another what we want to bring into our day. A feeling, a thought, a word – anything. It’s been healing on so many levels. I told Jeff the other day that I was worried he would think I was too crazy to go for it. And he openly admitted that he felt like such a weirdo dancing that first day. But as we looked at one another letting go, and our girls smiling and becoming more free themselves, we all kind of took a joint deep breath. Sort of like an – it’s okay to be your whole self – kind of thing.
And I remembered in that moment that this is what it’s all about. Learning to love your whole entire self and be able to be open about the things that feel hard and weird and good all at the same time.
I don’t even really know how many 21 Day HE+LJ I’ve done to date but I will say every time I’ve done it, something different has come out of it. I usually know very clearly that I need it and I can feel my body craving it but where sometimes I feel healthier in my body other times I feel more calm, happy and at peace in my mind. It might bring clarity to a problem I’ve been trying to “fix” for a long time. At its core, it is a connector, a mind calmer, a body healer and a time slower if I’ve ever seen one.
So join me? 21 days of living and loving on yourself just a little bit more. You’ll get a 30+ page PDF to download with everything you’ll need plus when you sign up you will be immediately added to my email list. Over the course of the 21 days I’ll be writing to us all – at least every 2-3 days where I will personally share some love, a thought, a song, a recipe or something to incorporate into your daily rhythm. I can hardly wait for you to join in on April 7.
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